just saying =P
DO YOU SEE AN ELEPHANT?
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Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand. Ephesians 6:13
YELLOW
by Coldplay
Look at the stars
Look how they shine for you
And everything you do
Yeah, they were all yellow
I came along
I wrote a song for you
And all the things you do
And it was called 'Yellow'
So then I took my time
Oh what a thing to've done
And it was all yellow
Your skin, oh yeah, your skin and bones
Turn into something beautiful
D'you know? You know I love you so
You know I love you so
I swam across
I jumped across for you
Oh what a thing to do
'Cause you were all yellow
I drew a line
I drew a line for you
Oh what a thing to do
And it was all yellow
Your skin, oh yeah, your skin and bones
Turn into something beautiful
D'you know? For you I bleed myself dry
For you I bleed myself dry
It's true
Look how they shine for you
Look how they shine for you
Look how they shine for
Look how they shine for you
Look how they shine for you
Look how they shine
Look at the stars
Look how they shine for you
And all the things that you do
Y O U T U B E L O V E
MusicandMuffins <3
:D
P R O F I L E
me myself and i :D
Hello (: my name is Caleb chan. An ordinary muggle who wishes he got that letter when he was 11. So jelly of all those wizkids who are now learning how to shoot fire out of their magik wands and make things fly. I like my MACAROONSand chocolate and green tea and ice cream and and and I'm out (: yes I am AWESOME because I use backwards smileys and know wonderful friends who do as well! I go to church and try to be more like CHRIST because he is so awesome! yes yes even more awesome than me (: way more awesome. Christian at heart and hopefully in the near future, Christian in my actions as well! God bless YBIC < [YOUR BROTHER IN CHRIST]!!!
F I F T E E N
RANDOM FACTS
RANDOM FACTS
well, i am in high school, aren't i?
HAS NOT BEEN COMPLETED (: PLEASE WAIT!!!
ONE I'm CHRISTIAN!. TWO I grew up with Harry Potter. THREE Want to get married!!. FOUR Also known as Bleb, Cable, Cablehhhhhhh. FIVE or it could be say, the top whatever songs in your ipod/itunes/etc right now. SIX you could also have a wishlist with pictures attached if you like online shopping. SEVEN heh heh. maybe someone will get you something :X EIGHT it could also be a recommendation section? NINE like maybe good movies/songs/places to shop at :D TEN oh this would also work as a sort of announcement section. ELEVEN like any urgent things you want your readers to know. TWELVE or if you're the type, you could put disclaimers here. THIRTEEN or this could be an advertisements section. FOURTEEN like for your friend's blogshop or something? FIFTEEN basically, just be creative and personalize this skin to suit you.
T O D O L I S T
this should be useful
basically just stuff you need to do, like homework and projects. or you could change this to any other stuff you want yeah?
CHATTER~
yakkity yak yak
5:08 PM - Tuesday, September 28, 2010
haha yeah, its sad but, seeing you smile and happy makes me just that little bit happier inside :)
9:39 PM - Monday, September 27, 2010
yeah, update.
my grandpa is in hospital, they were discussing whether to put him on a respirator. im not sure if they did. but my dad is flying to hong kong tomorrow morning, to go see him. apparently, if he isnt on the machine, he may not make it through the night, if he is, they say he may hang on just long enough for my dad to get there...
i dont even know what to say anymore. just yeah
thats happening. right now.
in my life..
8:25 PM
oh yeah, something i forgot to mention. of relatively greater importance than the last post, but.
i found out this afternoon, that my grandpa is sick. hes been in hospital for some time now, and they dont know if hes going to get better, because of the cancer that he has. im not very close to him, and dont know him very well but i know that somewhere inside of me i love hi m. please pray for him, i dont think he's a christian but i know that God loves everyone, even those who dont believe in him. theres a chance that we(my family) may need to return to hong kong, to visit him. I pray that we dont, not because i dont want to go back to hong kong, but because i hope there will be no need to. that God will place his healing hand on him, and he will get better.
so yeah.. please pray for my grandpa.
thankyou friends.
8:18 PM
wow... i cant help but sometimes feel that, whenever im in a bad/down mood, people around me all seem happy and cheerful. But once i get into a better mood, a bit happier even, everyone around me starts to become down, and fall into worse moods, sad and stuff. as if theres some balance where either i have to be sad, or my friends. and yeah i know im being extremely self centred and contrary to my own belief, the world does not revolve around me.
but i just cant help but think like that sometimes, because i would really rather i feel down, if other people could feel happier, than the other way around.
*cue-coolstory bro*
yeah thats it..
crap week.
11:16 PM - Sunday, September 26, 2010
GARGHH
FARK! i hate this. i hate it all... ive had the worst week since i dont even know how long.
first thing on monday morning, yay maths marks, a FREAKING 58% on a 2UNIT MATHS PAPER.
i mean how freaking stupid do i have to get. its a 2 unit paper and i hardly passed. yeah its year 11 and no one gives a crap about it. but my rents WILL kill me. than the day goes on with nothing good happening, only worse crap
tuesday i get more results back yay fail even more subjects.
by the end of the week ive gotten english maths 2 and 3unit, economics, business and chemistry.
english yay 14,14,18 in 3 essays so freaking bad. 14 out of 20 is so crap i wanna shootmyself..
maths, ive already talked about the 2unit mark, but the 3unit mark, hurray 38% even FKING shitter! i should crawl into a hole and die, like what sylvia plath tried to do, wonder how many sleeping tablets before i dont wake up again.
economics, the one subject was hoping to do decent in, i got 69% yeah i feel so crap.
even worse was fking coming 2nd last in my business class. the ONLY business class. just wonderful, 66% yay.
chemistry i knew i was going to fail anyway. and im dropping it. i got 29 out of 60 hurray for less than 50%...
i am going to die. my dad will probably take out some freaking knife and stab me repeatedly until i die. may not be that bad actually, well if i die fast.
friday night.... formal was a waste of time, pay $80 to go to some place and feel shit, lonely, and out of place. yeah i whine alot, i know im just that sad and have no life. than went to our church sleepover late, cause of the stupid semiformal, i should have stayed home that day. formal sucked, than sleepover, i spent the entire time, walking from one room to the other avoiding having to see my ex chatting with my friend who has a girlfriend already , lots of fun.
oh and in between the odd times when i went outside to try and avoid everything happening.
rinse and repeat for the rest of the night and the morning after. excellent fun.
saturday. i did nothing part from sit at home.
today, ohh today how fun.
went to some random uncles house for lunch. got raged at by dad, death glared and than threatened because my BROTHER stole something of mine and i took it back. he starts crying, my dad walks in, threatens me. and makes me give MY thing to my brother because he just tried to fking steal it from me. drive home sucked. sister driving, dad raging at her. if i have to endure my dad teaching me how to drive. i will just not drive and fking take public transport everywhere.
get home, more raging by my dad, threatened to be beaten more, than my dad finds every single fking excuse to put me down, asif i dont already know that im a piece of shit. it just hurts that bit more when the people who are supposed to love you. who are genetically biologically engineered to love you, dont. than mum comes in, cant take a bit of sarcasm because of my fking shit mood, rages and gives me a lecture.
yeah my week was fking sick. hated every moment of it. and yes im an attention seeking homo which is why im posting all this up here. so yeah. kill me now.
All good things come to an end~
10:00 PM - Thursday, September 23, 2010
Honestly what will become of me
don't like reality
It's way too clear to me
But really life is dandy
We are what we don't see
Missed everything daydreaming
[Chorus:]
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to end?
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to an end?
Traveling I only stop at exits
Wondering if I'll stay
Young and restless
Living this way I stress less
I want to pull away when the dream dies
The pain sets in and I don't cry
I only feel gravity and I wonder why
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to end?
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to an end?
Well the dogs were whistling a new tune
Barking at the new moon
Hoping it would come soon so that they could
Dogs were whistling a new tune
Barking at the new moon
Hoping it would come soon so that they could
Die die die die die
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to end?
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to an end?
Well the dogs were barking at a new moon
Whistling a new tune
Hoping it would come soon
And the sun was wondering if it should stay away for a day 'til the feeling went away
And the sky was falling on the clouds were dropping and
the rain forgot how to bring salvation
the dogs were barking at the new moon
Whistling a new tune
Hoping it would come soon so that they could die.
don't like reality
It's way too clear to me
But really life is dandy
We are what we don't see
Missed everything daydreaming
[Chorus:]
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to end?
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to an end?
Traveling I only stop at exits
Wondering if I'll stay
Young and restless
Living this way I stress less
I want to pull away when the dream dies
The pain sets in and I don't cry
I only feel gravity and I wonder why
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to end?
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to an end?
Well the dogs were whistling a new tune
Barking at the new moon
Hoping it would come soon so that they could
Dogs were whistling a new tune
Barking at the new moon
Hoping it would come soon so that they could
Die die die die die
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to end?
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to an end?
Well the dogs were barking at a new moon
Whistling a new tune
Hoping it would come soon
And the sun was wondering if it should stay away for a day 'til the feeling went away
And the sky was falling on the clouds were dropping and
the rain forgot how to bring salvation
the dogs were barking at the new moon
Whistling a new tune
Hoping it would come soon so that they could die.
Keep me accountable please =)
11:35 PM - Sunday, September 19, 2010
Starting today; new resolution.
to READ THE BIBLE MORE! =)
Well Im planning to be reading Luke, Chapters 1-10 by next week friday, and i would really like to be able to do that. Just so that i can get out of the mindset that talking to God is a one-way thing, where we just pray to him but that he will talk back to us, if we allow it. Through the bible and the gospel that he has given us (credit to aaron too!=])
Soooo im planning on getting 2 chapters read per night and really want to be able to do this. if possible could you ask me about it to just see how its going or to remind me if or when i forget, which i am scared will happen.
THANKS! haha =]
just to keep me accountable, in reading the bible.
Take care (:
Caleb, your brother in Christ
10:58 PM - Friday, September 17, 2010
yeah. i give up....
whats the point, in trying to get closer to people. to try and be close enough to trust them fully. there is no point... well not to me anyway.
all that you get is hurt and pain and a sense of worthlessness that doesnt go away. a feeling that you just lost, something that was never yours anyway, and was just a dream.
everybody just drifts away. all that happens is i get hurt, over and over and over again. just with different people as they come and go. we talk, smile we're happy. well i am. than we drift apart.
its always like that. every single freaking time. so why wont i learn. when i should just give up... idunno... but i think ive had enough of getting hurt like that.
i just give up now. i dont know if im going to get close to anybody anymore. or if ill let myself.
just to stop the pain. for a little while at least. and i know ill slip up, but hopefully that will disappear with practice.
so yeah.
i give up...
9:53 PM - Wednesday, September 15, 2010
you know what sucks? man my parents are just great!
your parents making a joke out of your breakup over dinner.
yeah just great.
than having to act like you dont care.
and find it funny as well.
oh
and getting hit by your dad for looking at what your brothers doing.
and him being to lazy to pick up his phone to call my sister. so hitting me to make me go do it.
yeah.
12:17 AM
i need to get a hold of myself.
GET A GRIP MAN... okay calmmmmmm
but yeah =/ i need to restrain my emotions more... get the out of where they dont belong.
away from people who they shouldnt be going towards...
i cant be feeling this way. im not allowed, i know that
but i still do... what is wrong with me.
it used to be so easy.
to hold myself. to keep myself from showing any of this.
why is it changing now. my mask... its dying and i hate it.
sometimes i hate having my mask there... and i want someone...
anyone..
to notice how i feel and care...
but at other times.. i love having it there,
so that nobody knows how i feel and i dont have to worry anyone..
so yeah...
thats me.
now.
messed up.
like i always was.
kthnxbai
1:13 AM - Tuesday, September 14, 2010
GARGH what the heck is wrong with me!??!
I cant feel this way. i forbade myself from feeling this way. and about this person... NO
i just cant.... i cant
but why do i still feel like this.
i hate myself...... im sorry