9:04 PM - Tuesday, August 31, 2010
wow... i havent posted in a while =O
maybe i should start posting some more o_O
but i dont have time!!!!!
omgosh exams next week! i am so going to fail! like
extremely hard... my exam timetable is decent at times, but completely horrible at others..
Monday;
English and Business D:
Tuesday;
Economics and Maths 2u D:
THATS 4 EXAMS IN 2 DAYS!
Wednesday;
Free
Thursday;
Chemistry
Friday;
Ancient History
Monday-Thursday;
Free ( epik 6day weekend to study/cram for extension maths...)
Friday;
Maths 3u D: gonna fail..........
yeah my exam timetable is decent.. and incredibly horrible... all at the same time.
dont you hate it.. when you get close to people, become friends. Like really good friends, not those ones that you say hi to once in a while, but someone who you can actually talk to about your problems... someone you trust with as much as you can bear.. being able to talk freely about anything on msn, even if i cant really be like that in person.
Than after a while you start to drift apart... you start to talk less, laugh less, be happy less around them. you cant even talk to them much on msn, as if everything you could have talked about has been talked about, youve run dry and cant think of anything to start an awkward conversation with... you just start to feel like its ending, even though most of the time its just begun. that there was no hope at all to begin with and you were chasing some fleeting dream. its a cycle, one that goes on over and over. over and over. until i dont know what happens.
maybe one day ill find someone who i dont drift away from, who i can trust with everything,
just maybe...
i just know that the only one i can really, truly trust. to always be at myside, no matter what happens or what troubles im going through, is God. he Will be with me till the end and i have faith in that.
kthnxbai
RICE RALLY
3:13 PM - Sunday, August 22, 2010
Rally was pretty good,
time with friends is good in general hehe
loved the talk, really moved me (:
I prayed the prayer, walked out and it felt GREAT =]
THANKYOU trevor, for coming out with me =)
your my role model (Y)
i definitely recommend people go
RICE FEVER 2010!
1:15 AM - Sunday, August 15, 2010
yeah we had rice today, it was sortve a let down... with all the hype flying around, i wasnt really expecting that much, but it didnt even live up to what i was really expecting. the talk was too short and didnt really say anything.. well to me at least.
i really felt sorry for the "non--asian" rappers who went up and performed, since it was a almost fully asian crowd, we didnt know how to appreciate their music. the other bands were pretty good though. GARAGE HYMNAL! were really good, as expected but i didnt get to buy their cd and get it autographed! which didnt make my day any better.
JUSTICE CREWWWW went to rice fever (: getting a teeshirt signed by emman was definately the highlight of the day! as well as the photos which i got with them. it was cool. they are actually really awesome dancers! seeing them live really let me see that, and appreciate them more, even though i was so far back that i couldnt see the floorwork they were doing ): that sortve sucked...
probably the best thing that we ended up doing was walk around and take photos of people
=)
some ending in horrible disasters...
and omgosh! there were some amazing guys who were bboy-ing, and Aaron was one of them (: him and his very G friends haha
i got videos of most of them when they were dancing, but it was on grass so sortve dodgy. i got a few really nice photos of aaron doing freezes which was cool *shall post on fb when i get home*
the trip home was sortve... bad
felt really bad and broke down..
i guess its sortve obvious when i do, since whenever it actually happens, which is often. i tend to just keep to myself and pump my music really loud so i can block out everything. pretending to sleep also helps, even though the bus trip sortve didnt work out. it just sucks when you realise, what you really are like. what youre like on the inside, and how you act and stuff..
i kindve reflected on our study on friday at 180fm, where we were talking about all christians being hypocrites.
its funny how i thought i could become a leader when i leave high school, in a bit more than a years time. when i am no where near ready. reflecting on what im like, really showed me just how far i have to gom when i can think about the consequences of what i do, what its affect on other people would be like, and just how much i trust in God.
knowing how far i still have to go, really sheds some light on what im doing wrong. i just pray that God will help me fix them. all of them.
anyways.. enough of my mental breakdowns and bouts of depression.
shoutout to my friend WONEY BHANG!
for being awesome and its his birthday (: so
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
Shifty retarded doodles
10:58 PM - Monday, August 9, 2010
L -Deathnote
Chibi Cloud -FF7
Another Chibi Cloud... -FF7
VERY shifty reno... -FF7
Gaara -Naruto
Kakashi Naruto
Speed drawn Hitsugaya -Bleach
Monkey D. Luffy -One Piece
10:50 PM
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6:41 PM
As there an emotion... where you're feeling no emotion?
or is that emotionless... not being an emotion o_O
i wonder...
11:38 PM - Sunday, August 8, 2010
7:39 PM - Saturday, August 7, 2010
7:27 PM
yeah... I wish I did
7:18 PM
I wish i did.... After all thats happened. i dont know if i can anymore.
When i first met you, it was awesome. We talked about anything pretty much and when we were together. I felt like i could talk to someone who cared... but it faded, after a while we talked less and less, until we hardly spoke at all. now that we've gone our own ways, i cant find a way to talk to you without it being too awkward or being unbearable to me. I dont know how it is for you, but for me i cant handle it. I hope you can understand that i dont mean you any pain by ignoring you. its just that...
I dont know how to talk to you.
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10:39 PM - Thursday, August 5, 2010
sooo cool =]
10:30 PM
I wouldnt mind these headphones (:
Off twjnrvee
10:21 PM
a professor stood before his philosophy class and had some items in front of him. when the class began, wordlessly, he picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with golf balls. he then asked the students if the jar was full. they agreed that it was.
so the professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the jar. he shook the jar lightly. the pebbles rolled into the open areas between the golf balls. he then asked the students again if the jar was full. they agreed it was.
the professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar. of course, the sand filled up everything else. he asked once more if the jar was full. the students responded with an unanimous “yes.”
the professor then produced two cups of coffee from under the table and poured the entire contents into the jar, effectively filling the space between the grains of sand.
“now,” said the professor, as the laughter subsided, “i want you to recognize that this jar represents your life. the golf balls are the important things—your family, your children, your health, your friends, and your favorite passions - things that if everything else was lost and only they remained, your life would still be full.
the pebbles are the other things that matter like your job, your house, and your car. the sand is everything else -the small stuff.
“if you put the sand into the jar first,” he continued, “there is no room for the pebbles or the golf balls. the same goes for life. if you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff, you will never have room for the things that are important to you. pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness. play with your children. take time to get medical checkups. take your partner out to dinner. play another 18.
there will always be time to clean the house and fix the disposal. “take care of the golf balls first, the things that really matter. set your priorities. the rest is just sand.”
one of the students raised her hand and inquired what the coffee represented. the professor smiled. “i’m glad you asked. it just goes to show you that no matter how full your life may seem, there’s always room for a couple of cups of coffee with a friend.”
Another day of school
6:08 PM
HAPPY BIRTHDAY KEV!!!!! x)
Didn't get to punch you today ): haha
and omgosh the maths test was so funny! because i knew it woundn't count towards anything xD
so i didn't try haha, i might have answered 6 or so questions out of the ... 36? i don't even know what i answered for them, since i just randomly filled in bubbles (: i even left the last 5 blank. Aren't i smart 8D
pokemon is awesome haha
especially when you have crystal on your phone (: one person started this craze in our grade, and sent it to heaps of people. now theres like 30 people sitting in classes playing pokemon (:
selective schools (L) psyduck=]
and i should do my work... but pokemon is so much more interesting in class haha
It was so funny when this tryhard in my Business studies class got caught playing pokemon! he yelled out " i caught a pigeotto! now i can teach it fly =D" and the teacher comes over, confiscates his phone...
AND TURNS IT OFF mwahahaha such an evil teacher, woulda been worse than an arvo (:
5:02 PM - Tuesday, August 3, 2010
OHH EMMM GEEEEE THIS IS SO COOL I WANT IT!
Thankyou (:
4:20 PM
I can only say thankyou so much, and you guys can only imagine how grateful I am to have friends like you guys. You were there when I was down and needed help, even when I didn't think I deserved it, you helped me anyway, and I'm so thankful. thankyou for being there for me, for talking to me and helping me get back up on my feet, I know that you will or do have your own problems now but you still took the time to look after me, I pray that you will be able to answer all your problems (: and become happier, like you have helped me to, if I can help or If you just need someone to listen to, Ill be there to repay my debt. We are a family, you guys are my brothers and sisters in Christ whom we all
trust and obey! but you are also my family ;) haha for those who get that hehe.
I'm sorry if me involving you guys has hurt or broken your friendships with her, I didn't want to have made you have to choose or cause you guys problems, so I'm extremely sorry if I did end up causing you guys problems.
You guys are the BEST ^^
just a note, I have an AWESOME psychologist ;) haha she's the best! (haha just for you bestie!)
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12:53 AM - Monday, August 2, 2010
OMG i just realised how badly i want new headphones as well :S
this isnt good.. i want so much stufff D:
